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In 2013 I made a choice to get larger breasts ๐ฎ๐ง๐๐๐ซ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฌ๐ that I wanted to simply have more symmetrical breasts. โฃ
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Although that was true to some extent, I also wanted them bigger because having narrow hips and a small chest left me feeling less feminine based on societal โ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฎ๐ดโ or what media portrayed as โ๐ด๐ฆ๐น๐บโ my entire life.โฃ
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๐๐ง๐ฒ๐ฐ๐๐ฒ๐ฌ, ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ง ๐ ๐ฆ๐๐๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐๐ก๐จ๐ข๐๐, ๐ ๐ฐ๐๐ฌ ๐ฌ๐ฎ๐๐๐๐ซ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ฆ๐๐ง๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐๐ฒ๐ฌ.โฃ
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I had gotten a divorce that same summer & that left me fearing โ๐ฎ๐ข๐บ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฏ๐ด ๐ ๐ธ๐ช๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ข ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฎ?โ It broke my heart. I mourned the loss of what I thought was โsupposedโ to happen in my life.โฃ
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I had also realized ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐ซ๐๐ฅ๐๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง๐ฌ๐ก๐ข๐ฉ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก ๐๐ฅ๐๐จ๐ก๐จ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐๐ฌ ๐๐ง ๐๐๐๐ข๐๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง (๐ฃ๐ถ๐ต ๐ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ช๐ข๐ญ ๐ข๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐น๐ต๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ข๐ญ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ญ๐ช๐ด๐ฎ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ข ๐ง๐ฆ๐ธ ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ๐ด ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ต๐ช๐ญ ๐ ๐จ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ด๐ต ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ ๐ฎ๐บ๐ด๐ฆ๐ญ๐ง & ๐จ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ณ).โฃ
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During this same time, I had also just sustained a ๐ญ๐ซ๐๐ฎ๐ฆ๐๐ญ๐ข๐ ๐๐ซ๐๐ข๐ง ๐ข๐ง๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ฒ and fractured skull after falling down my stairs (๐ธ๐ฉ๐ช๐ญ๐ฆ ๐ฃ๐ญ๐ข๐ค๐ฌ ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ฅ๐ณ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ฌ ๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ธ๐ฟ๐ต๐ฉ ๐ฃ๐ช๐ณ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฅ๐ข๐บ).
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I was making reckless choices (๐ฑ๐ข๐ณ๐ต๐ญ๐บ ๐ง๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฎ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ฐ๐จ๐ฏ๐ช๐ต๐ช๐ท๐ฆ ๐ช๐ฎ๐ฑ๐ข๐ช๐ณ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต) all while being ๐๐ฅ๐๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ ๐ข๐ง๐ญ๐จ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ซ๐ญ ๐จ๐ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐ฌ๐ฉ๐ข๐ซ๐ข๐ญ๐ฎ๐๐ฅ ๐๐ฐ๐๐ค๐๐ง๐ข๐ง๐ & expansion of consciousness.โฃ
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You see, I wanted to ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ญ๐ญ๐๐ซ ๐๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ ๐ฐ๐๐ฌ ๐๐ญ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ซ๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฉ๐จ๐ข๐ง๐ญ of my self-development and self-love journey. โฃ
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This was before I truly understood that feeling better was an ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐. Back then, I was still looking for a ๐๐๐ง๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐ซ๐จ๐๐๐ก (outside measures) to gain more confidence within myself.โฃ
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Had I known how much I would soon ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ข๐ง ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐, ๐ก๐จ๐ง๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐๐ง๐ ๐๐๐๐ฉ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ซ๐๐ฌ๐ฉ๐๐๐ญ ๐ฆ๐ฒ๐ฌ๐๐ฅ๐, I would have never chosen this surgery because I know ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐๐จ๐๐ฒ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ซ๐ญ๐ก๐ฒ & ๐๐ง๐จ๐ฎ๐ ๐ก ๐๐ฑ๐๐๐ญ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ก๐จ๐ฐ ๐ข๐ญ ๐ข๐ฌ.โฃ
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Had I known how much I would ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฆ๐๐ง ๐ ๐ฐ๐๐ฌ ๐ ๐ซ๐จ๐ฐ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ข๐ง๐ญ๐จ & ๐๐๐๐จ๐ฆ๐ข๐ง๐ , ๐๐ฎ๐ญ ๐๐ฅ๐ฌ๐จ, ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฆ๐๐ง ๐ฐ๐ก๐จ ๐ ๐ฐ๐๐ฌ ๐ ๐ซ๐จ๐ฐ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐จ๐. โฃ
โฃLove the version of me who was still suffering and neglecting herself so much.โฃ
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๐๐ฐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฒ๐ถ๐ฆ๐ด๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ช๐ด, ๐ฅ๐ฐ ๐ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐จ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ต ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต๐ต๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ช๐ฎ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต๐ด?โฃ
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๐๐ฎ๐ซ๐ฉ๐ซ๐ข๐ฌ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฅ๐ฒ, ๐ ๐๐จ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ.โฃ
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It was a choice that was an important part of my ๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅโ๐ฌ ๐ ๐ซ๐จ๐ฐ๐ญ๐ก & ๐๐ฏ๐จ๐ฅ๐ฎ๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง in this lifetime.โฃ
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I needed to understand, at a deep level, what it feels like to ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ง๐ถ๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ข๐ค๐ค๐ฆ๐ฑ๐ต myself or body in order to also ๐ฎ๐ง๐๐๐ซ๐ฌ๐ญ๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ญ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ฉ, ๐ฏ๐ข๐ฌ๐๐๐ซ๐๐ฅ ๐ฅ๐๐ฏ๐๐ฅ, ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐ข๐ญ ๐ฆ๐๐๐ง๐ฌ ๐ญ๐จ ๐๐ก๐๐ซ๐ข๐ฌ๐ก, ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ & ๐๐๐๐๐ฉ๐ญ ๐ฆ๐ฒ๐ฌ๐๐ฅ๐ - ๐๐ง๐ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐๐จ๐๐ฒ. I named my company www.bodycherish.ca for a reason!โฃ
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The journey of learning to ๐ญ๐ซ๐๐๐ญ ๐ฆ๐ฒ๐ฌ๐๐ฅ๐ with ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ, ๐ต๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด, ๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด, ๐ฉ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ด๐ต๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ข๐ณ๐ฅ๐ด, ๐ด๐ต๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ข๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ด, ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ต๐ฉ๐บ ๐ค๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ช๐ค๐ฆ๐ด, ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ต๐ฉ๐บ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ข๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ด๐ฉ๐ช๐ฑ๐ด, and ๐ญ๐ซ๐๐๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐จ๐๐ฒ ๐ ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ก๐จ๐ฆ๐ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐ ๐ ๐ญ๐๐ฆ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐, has been so beautiful.โฃ
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After growing my 9 lb daughter inside my 5โ3 frame, I have a ๐ง๐๐ฐ ๐ฅ๐๐ฏ๐๐ฅ ๐จ๐ ๐๐ฉ๐ฉ๐ซ๐๐๐ข๐๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง, ๐ซ๐๐ฏ๐๐ซ๐๐ง๐๐ & ๐ฌ๐ก๐๐๐ซ ๐๐ฐ๐ ๐๐จ๐ซ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ฉ๐๐๐ข๐ญ๐ฒ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐๐จ๐๐ฒ ๐ก๐๐ฌ to not only hold me through this lifetime, but to ๐ฃ๐ณ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐ต๐ฉ ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ธ ๐ญ๐ช๐ง๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฐ!
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Lastly, it is 100% possible to have cosmetic surgery from ๐๐ง ๐๐ฆ๐ฉ๐จ๐ฐ๐๐ซ๐๐ & ๐ฌ๐๐ฅ๐ ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐๐๐. Those who make that choice, I celebrate! โฃ
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I, however, wasnโt making this decision from that place of empowerment (๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐จ๐ฉ ๐ ๐ต๐ฐ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฎ๐บ๐ด๐ฆ๐ญ๐ง ๐ข๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ช๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ ๐ธ๐ข๐ด).โฃ
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So, the final question is, ๐ธ๐ช๐ญ๐ญ ๐ ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต ๐ข๐ฏ ๐ฆ๐น๐ฑ๐ญ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ด๐ถ๐ณ๐จ๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ? I will one day, I just donโt know when. โฃ
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I am nervous to go to hospitals, let alone under the knife so it may be awhile yet. I do also understand the immense health benefits of getting them removed.โฃ
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In the meantime, ๐ ๐ข๐ง๐ฏ๐ข๐ญ๐ ๐๐ฏ๐๐ซ๐ฒ๐จ๐ง๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ก๐จ๐ฅ๐ ๐จ๐๐ ๐๐๐ฌ๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐๐ ๐๐ฆ๐๐ง๐ญ on someone who has had elective surgery. You will never know their backstory & what propelled them to that choice.โฃ
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Ps. my wish is for every woman to find deeper levels of love & appreciation for herself. ๐๐จ ๐ญ๐ซ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐๐ก๐๐ซ๐ข๐ฌ๐ก ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฆ๐๐ง ๐ฌ๐ก๐ ๐ข๐ฌ & ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐จ๐๐ฒ ๐ฌ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฌ ๐ก๐จ๐ฆ๐.โฃ
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Thank you for reading, I love you.โฃ
Xo Christine
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