My Breast Implant Journey... (super vulnerable share)

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In 2013 I made a choice to get larger breasts ๐ฎ๐ง๐๐ž๐ซ ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฌ๐ž that I wanted to simply have more symmetrical breasts. โฃ

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Although that was true to some extent, I also wanted them bigger because having narrow hips and a small chest left me feeling less feminine based on societal โ€œ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฎ๐˜ดโ€ or what media portrayed as โ€œ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜น๐˜บโ€ my entire life.โฃ

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๐€๐ง๐ฒ๐ฐ๐š๐ฒ๐ฌ, ๐ฐ๐ก๐ž๐ง ๐ˆ ๐ฆ๐š๐๐ž ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐œ๐ก๐จ๐ข๐œ๐ž, ๐ˆ ๐ฐ๐š๐ฌ ๐ฌ๐ฎ๐Ÿ๐Ÿ๐ž๐ซ๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ข๐ง ๐ฆ๐š๐ง๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐š๐ฒ๐ฌ.โฃ

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I had gotten a divorce that same summer & that left me fearing โ€œ๐˜ฎ๐˜ข๐˜บ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ด ๐˜ ๐˜ธ๐˜ช๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ?โ€ It broke my heart. I mourned the loss of what I thought was โ€œsupposedโ€ to happen in my life.โฃ

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I had also realized ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐ซ๐ž๐ฅ๐š๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง๐ฌ๐ก๐ข๐ฉ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก ๐š๐ฅ๐œ๐จ๐ก๐จ๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐š๐ฌ ๐š๐ง ๐š๐๐๐ข๐œ๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง (๐˜ฃ๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ช๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜ข๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฆ๐˜น๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ด๐˜ฎ ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ข ๐˜ง๐˜ฆ๐˜ธ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜บ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ด ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ญ ๐˜ ๐˜จ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ธ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜ฉ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ง & ๐˜จ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ).โฃ

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During this same time, I had also just sustained a ๐ญ๐ซ๐š๐ฎ๐ฆ๐š๐ญ๐ข๐œ ๐›๐ซ๐š๐ข๐ง ๐ข๐ง๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ฒ and fractured skull after falling down my stairs (๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ญ๐˜ข๐˜ค๐˜ฌ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ฅ๐˜ณ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฌ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐Ÿธ๐Ÿฟ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜บ).

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I was making reckless choices (๐˜ฑ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ญ๐˜บ ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜จ๐˜ฏ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ฆ ๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฑ๐˜ข๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต) all while being ๐›๐ฅ๐š๐ฌ๐ญ๐ž๐ ๐ข๐ง๐ญ๐จ ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐ฌ๐ญ๐š๐ซ๐ญ ๐จ๐Ÿ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐ฌ๐ฉ๐ข๐ซ๐ข๐ญ๐ฎ๐š๐ฅ ๐š๐ฐ๐š๐ค๐ž๐ง๐ข๐ง๐  & expansion of consciousness.โฃ

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You see, I wanted to ๐…๐„๐„๐‹ ๐›๐ž๐ญ๐ญ๐ž๐ซ ๐›๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ˆ ๐ฐ๐š๐ฌ ๐š๐ญ ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐ฌ๐ญ๐š๐ซ๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ฉ๐จ๐ข๐ง๐ญ of my self-development and self-love journey. โฃ

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This was before I truly understood that feeling better was an ๐ˆ๐๐’๐ˆ๐ƒ๐„ ๐‰๐Ž๐. Back then, I was still looking for a ๐›๐š๐ง๐๐š๐ข๐ ๐š๐ฉ๐ฉ๐ซ๐จ๐š๐œ๐ก (outside measures) to gain more confidence within myself.โฃ

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Had I known how much I would soon ๐Ÿ๐š๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ข๐ง ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ž, ๐ก๐จ๐ง๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐š๐ง๐ ๐๐ž๐ž๐ฉ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ซ๐ž๐ฌ๐ฉ๐ž๐œ๐ญ ๐ฆ๐ฒ๐ฌ๐ž๐ฅ๐Ÿ, I would have never chosen this surgery because I know ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐›๐จ๐๐ฒ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ซ๐ญ๐ก๐ฒ & ๐ž๐ง๐จ๐ฎ๐ ๐ก ๐ž๐ฑ๐š๐œ๐ญ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ก๐จ๐ฐ ๐ข๐ญ ๐ข๐ฌ.โฃ

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Had I known how much I would ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ž ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฆ๐š๐ง ๐ˆ ๐ฐ๐š๐ฌ ๐ ๐ซ๐จ๐ฐ๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ข๐ง๐ญ๐จ & ๐›๐ž๐œ๐จ๐ฆ๐ข๐ง๐ , ๐›๐ฎ๐ญ ๐š๐ฅ๐ฌ๐จ, ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ž ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฆ๐š๐ง ๐ฐ๐ก๐จ ๐ˆ ๐ฐ๐š๐ฌ ๐ ๐ซ๐จ๐ฐ๐ข๐ง๐  ๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐จ๐Ÿ. โฃ

โฃLove the version of me who was still suffering and neglecting herself so much.โฃ

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๐˜š๐˜ฐ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฒ๐˜ถ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ช๐˜ด, ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฐ ๐˜ ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜จ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต ๐˜จ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฑ๐˜ญ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ด?โฃ

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๐’๐ฎ๐ซ๐ฉ๐ซ๐ข๐ฌ๐ข๐ง๐ ๐ฅ๐ฒ, ๐ˆ ๐๐จ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ.โฃ

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It was a choice that was an important part of my ๐’๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅโ€™๐ฌ ๐ ๐ซ๐จ๐ฐ๐ญ๐ก & ๐ž๐ฏ๐จ๐ฅ๐ฎ๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง in this lifetime.โฃ

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I needed to understand, at a deep level, what it feels like to ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต ๐˜ง๐˜ถ๐˜ญ๐˜ญ๐˜บ ๐˜ข๐˜ค๐˜ค๐˜ฆ๐˜ฑ๐˜ต myself or body in order to also ๐ฎ๐ง๐๐ž๐ซ๐ฌ๐ญ๐š๐ง๐ ๐š๐ญ ๐š ๐๐ž๐ž๐ฉ, ๐ฏ๐ข๐ฌ๐œ๐ž๐ซ๐š๐ฅ ๐ฅ๐ž๐ฏ๐ž๐ฅ, ๐ฐ๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐ข๐ญ ๐ฆ๐ž๐š๐ง๐ฌ ๐ญ๐จ ๐œ๐ก๐ž๐ซ๐ข๐ฌ๐ก, ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ž & ๐š๐œ๐œ๐ž๐ฉ๐ญ ๐ฆ๐ฒ๐ฌ๐ž๐ฅ๐Ÿ - ๐š๐ง๐ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐›๐จ๐๐ฒ. I named my company www.bodycherish.ca for a reason!โฃ

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The journey of learning to ๐ญ๐ซ๐ž๐š๐ญ ๐ฆ๐ฒ๐ฌ๐ž๐ฅ๐Ÿ with ๐˜ญ๐˜ฐ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ, ๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ด, ๐˜ฌ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ด, ๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜จ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฅ๐˜ด, ๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ด, ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜บ ๐˜ค๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ช๐˜ค๐˜ฆ๐˜ด, ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜บ ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ด๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฑ๐˜ด, and ๐ญ๐ซ๐ž๐š๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ซ๐ž ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐›๐จ๐๐ฒ ๐ˆ ๐œ๐š๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ก๐จ๐ฆ๐ž ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐ž ๐š ๐ญ๐ž๐ฆ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐ž, has been so beautiful.โฃ

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After growing my 9 lb daughter inside my 5โ€3 frame, I have a ๐ง๐ž๐ฐ ๐ฅ๐ž๐ฏ๐ž๐ฅ ๐จ๐Ÿ ๐š๐ฉ๐ฉ๐ซ๐ž๐œ๐ข๐š๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง, ๐ซ๐ž๐ฏ๐ž๐ซ๐ž๐ง๐œ๐ž & ๐ฌ๐ก๐ž๐ž๐ซ ๐š๐ฐ๐ž ๐Ÿ๐จ๐ซ ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐œ๐š๐ฉ๐š๐œ๐ข๐ญ๐ฒ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐›๐จ๐๐ฒ ๐ก๐š๐ฌ to not only hold me through this lifetime, but to ๐˜ฃ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜ธ ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ง๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ธ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ญ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ!

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Lastly, it is 100% possible to have cosmetic surgery from ๐š๐ง ๐ž๐ฆ๐ฉ๐จ๐ฐ๐ž๐ซ๐ž๐ & ๐ฌ๐ž๐ฅ๐Ÿ ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐š๐œ๐ž. Those who make that choice, I celebrate! โฃ

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I, however, wasnโ€™t making this decision from that place of empowerment (๐˜ฆ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜จ๐˜ฉ ๐˜ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ๐˜ญ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ง ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ ๐˜ธ๐˜ข๐˜ด).โฃ

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So, the final question is, ๐˜ธ๐˜ช๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ ๐˜จ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฆ๐˜น๐˜ฑ๐˜ญ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ต ๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ณ๐˜จ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜บ? I will one day, I just donโ€™t know when. โฃ

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I am nervous to go to hospitals, let alone under the knife so it may be awhile yet. I do also understand the immense health benefits of getting them removed.โฃ

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In the meantime, ๐ˆ ๐ข๐ง๐ฏ๐ข๐ญ๐ž ๐ž๐ฏ๐ž๐ซ๐ฒ๐จ๐ง๐ž ๐ญ๐จ ๐ก๐จ๐ฅ๐ ๐จ๐Ÿ๐Ÿ ๐œ๐š๐ฌ๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐๐ ๐ž๐ฆ๐ž๐ง๐ญ on someone who has had elective surgery. You will never know their backstory & what propelled them to that choice.โฃ

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Ps. my wish is for every woman to find deeper levels of love & appreciation for herself. ๐“๐จ ๐ญ๐ซ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐œ๐ก๐ž๐ซ๐ข๐ฌ๐ก ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฆ๐š๐ง ๐ฌ๐ก๐ž ๐ข๐ฌ & ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐›๐จ๐๐ฒ ๐ฌ๐ก๐ž ๐œ๐š๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฌ ๐ก๐จ๐ฆ๐ž.โฃ

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Thank you for reading, I love you.โฃ

Xo Christine

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XO Christine

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