We don't always hear about ALL part of becoming a mother. For me, becoming a mother has been a powerful death and rebirth cycle. It has required pieces of my identity to be stripped away. ⁣

My triggers and shadows were illuminated relentlessly in the early months, as well as my partner’s, as we both navigated new parenthood.⁣

Deep childhood pains and patterns showed up for both of us. ⁣

But this time I could not submerge myself in my work to escape. ⁣

I had to be with it. FEEL IT FULLY.⁣

… and what’s now unfolded along the way is the deepest metamorphosis of my life. ⁣

𝐐𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐍𝐎𝗪 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐬𝐩𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐨𝐮𝐭𝐠𝐫𝐨𝐰𝐧. ⁣⁣

In the unknown of where I stood, I felt the deepest most profound sense of TRUST. ⁣

I had surrendered to the unfolding, dismantling and rearranging of my life.⁣
My slate was wiped clean and from that space I experienced FREEDOM. ⁣

Freedom to be whatever I choose.⁣

Freedom to explore the curiosities of my heart. ⁣

Freedom to be childlike with no rules or labels placed upon me. ⁣

Freedom to ask myself “is this right for me?”⁣

Freedom to change directions.⁣

Freedom to be a true force of nature in my life.
When it feels like we are “losing” parts of ourselves, what if we are actually gaining access to the dormant pieces inside of ourselves, ready to be awakened & unleashed?⁣

Metamorphosis is hard. Growing pains hurt ... but in the other side life delivers a new level of sweetness.

Has this happened to you? Or are you in it right now?⁣
Let me know over on IG or FB :) 

Christine Nicole
Christine Nicole