𝐂𝐄𝐋𝐄𝐁𝐑𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝟑 𝐘𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐒𝐎𝐁𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐓𝐘!!
There was once a time when it seemed impossible that I could gain freedom from an alcohol addiction that snuck up on me in my late 20’s.
But my heart is exploding with gratitude today - for what seemed truly impossible & hopeless - actually happened.
What was once my biggest hindrance in life, joy, purpose, creativity, success & health is now gone.
𝐈 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐤𝐧𝐞𝐰 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐨𝐫 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐨𝐛𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐥𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐡.
Yes, it almost broke me several times. I almost died when I turned 29 (read last year's blog).
That's the thing about life though… we are only given what we HAVE THE STRENGTH TO OVERCOME.
Well, my Soul sure picked exactly what I needed to grow me into who I now am and who I will keep evolving into.
From that lens, I am truly grateful for my addiction to alcohol. It taught me more than anything ever could.
I learned humility.
I learned compassion.
I learned forgiveness.
I learned self-love at the deepest level.
I learned perseverance & how to not give up.
I learned courage.
I learned transmutation of pain.
I learned boundaries.
I learned my dreams are worthy of being fulfilled.
I learned joy is my birthright.
I remember once thinking I would be absolutely mortified if anyone knew about my secret. The guilt and shame I carried was unbearable at times.
That is why I now CHOOSE to share about my past addiction - to bring light to the dark. To give those suffering in silence hope and assurance they are not alone.
The truth is alcohol impacts ALL genders, races and socio-economic classes. Yes, it is true there is a much higher rate of this addiction if you grew up in a home with alcohol abuse or extreme neglect - which was the case for me.
But, believe it or not, I wouldn’t ask to change my upbringing. I believe it was actually ME who chose to incarnate into that family to grow me in my soul’s evolution in powerful ways, many of which still have to reveal themselves.
From that vantage point, I can’t wish for the past to be any different. It all needed to be that way for what’s to come & what is sure to be a bright future!
Thank you so much for reading.